Posts Tagged ‘loss of a pet’

WHEN GOODBYE

IS NOT ENOUGH

(for a pet)

 

our eyes locked

as the vet sunk the

needle into her little soul.    

 

can you forgive me?

I pleaded far beyond

where tears are allowed to go;

a place inside broken stars

and where mountains

crumble steep when we’re not looking.

 

I think as I looked up towards

those painful fluorescent lights on

the ceiling, further away into

an unknown abyss

than even she,

 

I asked of God:

  why my

cat, why now?

 

the gentle nudge of an ethereal

answer stroked across my sorrow

like a soothing feather,

speaking to my sinking heart:

 

because I need her.

 

as I walked away, I heard

the vet’s small voice trailing

the distance

between us…do you want to take her home?

 

some familiar sound spilled from me

giving him a faint, almost inaudible

yes, but it

sounded more like an echo wherever

they go when they are shattered.

 

I didn’t even remember words

dropping like dying butterflies

from my frozen lips…

 

what was left of my

existence came crashing down

all around me once I stepped outside

into winter’s cold, unforgiveable embrace

 

and into the alien world of a

cruel and cat-less dawn.

 

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© Susan Joyner-Stumpf

OREO

WHEN GOD CALLS

 BACK A HORSE, II

The other horses gathered

Around her, as she closed her

Eyes forever……….

Oh God did she hear

The thunder as you called

Her hooves trailing like stardust

Raining down in my eyes

With unspeakable

Glitters of tears

Oh, did she ever look back at me

Galloping as she did

Upwards,

Upwards,

To  your precious pasture

In the sky?

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© Susan Joyner-Stumpf